a story of sorry~

sobbing... a gal sadly thinking about her relationship .... a very simple quarrel today btw her n her bf jus becoz tat guy felt tat she dun really bother bout him....
it is not like tat~
she been liked n liked somebody before....
she really been caring bout somebody she cared before....
she been really put tat very somebody in d 1st place before.....
she been also put hardwork in tat relationship before....
n she been really hurted by tat somebody before.....


so....... maybe ... just maybe she started to get a theory frm herself tat....
never put too much concern on something which may hurt her in future....


now she really stays happily v her lover who may sacrifice more than she wil do in the other hand ...
initially... she thought he wil be just someone who may enlighten her life again...
as time goes by... year by year.... she started to feel tat it may unfair for him....
but .... hers characteristic bit rebellious... a recalcitrant person...

she likes to quarrel v him but after tat she wil hate herself for being so ridiculous....
she likes to hurt him unpurposedly, but after tat she wil feel pain... dunno y
she likes to make him angry , make him jealous, coz she likes to see d moment he cares for her
she knows it is very immature action... instead of tat.. she stil addicted v tat...
she knows wat he wan... but jus she dun like to express it too frequent....
maybe unconsciously , deep down her instinct.... she dun allow herself to give out too much
even maybe herself also dunno y


however....
in d bottom of her heart....
she thanks him for everything...
she thanks him for being so nice to her since d first day they met
she thanks him for always forgiving her for her immatureness
she thanks him for always tat caring for her
she thanks him for tat loving her..

frm d feeling of like , d blossom of luv start growing... admiring.... she knows........

she cares for him for sure...
she likes him undoubtedly......
she luv him certainly...


jus maybe the way she expressed herself differently.....

now~ she sincerely hope tat he can forgive all her childish actions...
sorry~ tats d hardest word